I wish I lived near a theme park so I could take a picture of a roller coaster for this post because where I am in my grief really depends on the day. It is like an emotional roller coaster that I cannot get off of. Some days I feel at peace, that even though I miss Hunter dearly, that he’s in a better place and not suffering; and that if I share my story maybe it will help someone with what they are going through and know they are not alone. Other days I am just so angry and upset and just want to know why this happened to us and our family.
This is how I have felt since the beginning of this journey of grief, it hasn’t changed, I don’t feel any less sad or upset than I did when Hunter first died. It still hurts just as much. I still miss him just as much.
I actually find myself more angry now than I did at first. Maybe it’s because Huinter was the beginning of the past two years which have not been the greatest. I have lost more people who I love in the past two years than in the rest of my life. Everyday I just pray that something happy and positive is going to happen to our family because it’s been too long of a time of bad luck and sadness.
My Little Acorn 