Sharing my thoughts and feelings has never been easy for me. I have always been a shy, quiet person. I am not the best at making small talk with strangers or even people I know. This journey has been forcing me to change that. I’m still not the greatest at talking in person, but I am getting better at it, and writing my blog is certainly helping me get the words out.
I had hoped to join the loss support group at Mount Sinai to talk out loud about my grief with others who might have been in a similar situation, but the timing of it just never worked out for me. It was hard when I was off work because I had Xander, he wasn’t in school yet, and once I was back at work the timing of the group was during work hours. Every other group that my doctor suggested just didn’t seem like it would be a good fit because my situation was different than the loss groups offered in our area.
I did find the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Network on Facebook, which has been a great resource. They also have monthly group meetings, but again the timing didn’t work out to enable me to attend. But just seeing their postings and hearing other people’s stories has helped me realize that I am not alone and that sharing my story and experience could help others.
Another Facebook page that is great is Angel Baby. They also share stories and words of encouragement for families with Angel Babies.
I also reconnected with a mother I had met in the NICU. Although I would never want anyone else to have to go through this experience, it does help when you know someone who has and can relate to each other’s feelings.